Happy Father’s Day.

Happy Father’s Day to all the dads out there!!!  This is a day especially to honor my husband, who is an incredible father and husband, and my own dad.  My husband is truly the best!  On HIS day, he got up early with our son and let me sleep in, made breakfast and got Landon all ready for church this morning, what a great dad and husband he is!!!

So it’s been just over a week since my last post and it has been a hard week.  I asked my woman’s bible study group to pray for me this week to help me stay focused on my goals.  For some reason it never ceases to amaze me that when you put something out in the open for everyone to see and you ask for prayer for it, you are never more attacked than in that time.  No wonder everyone likes to keep their secrets in the dark.

This week has been especially hard for me.  I feel like I’ve been on this weight loss journey for forever now and have seen little to no results.  Unfortunately, that is all my fault.  I have not kept with it nor have I been completely honest with myself.  Until recently that is.  After that San Diego trip, I took a serious look at how I’ve been “changing” my eating lifestyle, but really haven’t.  Then like I said in the previous post, on June 2nd we started meal planning and staying pretty well on target with that.  That was two weeks ago and I should have lost something by now, but I haven’t!  Well, technically I have I guess, I’ve lost 0.4 lbs.  On June 2nd, I was 214 even, this past Friday, the 15th, I was 213.6.  How can that be!?  And that was a good number considering the other numbers I saw this week.  How is it that I can be so up and down all the time, I’ve never had this much trouble trying to lose weight when actually trying like this, that is until I had a kid.  I love my son so much more than words can express, however, I don’t necessarily like what it did to my body.  Another thing that frustrates me to no end, is seeing people that have lost quite a bit of weight that I don’t really like, which in my mind means that they shouldn’t have lost any weight, haha, reality hurts sometimes.

So Wednesday this week was one of the lowest points for me.  I just felt so defeated and discouraged and like there was no light at the end of the tunnel.  Before I got married I was at the gym ALL the time and I literally mean all the time.  I had 2 hour lunches at work and since the gym was 2 blocks away I would go for lunch and then again after work.  After, I got married, I cancelled my membership so that we could save some money.  I figured I could just do things at home to stay fit, but I feel that I really thrived at the gym.  I don’t know why, maybe I didn’t want to look dumb in front of everyone else or whatever, but I do so much better there.  So Wednesday, after talking with my husband, I rejoined the gym.  I went Wednesday night, Thursday night, and Friday morning.  Unfortunately, I haven’t been able to go this weekend because of other commitments.  However, starting Monday, my goal is to go 2-3 days a week twice a day and 2-3 days a week once a day.  I have also decided to start counting my Weight Watcher points but to also make sure my overall calorie intake is between 1400-1500.  According to loseit.com, my calorie intake should be 1570 to lose 2lbs per week.  So I’m hoping that with a 1400-1500 calorie intake and staying below my points and doing 2-a-days at the gym, I should start to see some progress.  Prayers are welcome for this! 🙂

My original plan for this blog was to write every day and I still want to do that. But with a 18month old, its hard to sit at the computer for any length of time.  Maybe my husband being home for the summer will allow me to do more.  But for now, I will do what I can.  I’ll let you know how it goes.

Last weigh-in June 15th, 2012       – 213.6

Here’s to hoping the next weigh-in I put on here is a LOT less!

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