Happy Father’s Day.

Happy Father’s Day to all the dads out there!!!  This is a day especially to honor my husband, who is an incredible father and husband, and my own dad.  My husband is truly the best!  On HIS day, he got up early with our son and let me sleep in, made breakfast and got Landon all ready for church this morning, what a great dad and husband he is!!!

So it’s been just over a week since my last post and it has been a hard week.  I asked my woman’s bible study group to pray for me this week to help me stay focused on my goals.  For some reason it never ceases to amaze me that when you put something out in the open for everyone to see and you ask for prayer for it, you are never more attacked than in that time.  No wonder everyone likes to keep their secrets in the dark.

This week has been especially hard for me.  I feel like I’ve been on this weight loss journey for forever now and have seen little to no results.  Unfortunately, that is all my fault.  I have not kept with it nor have I been completely honest with myself.  Until recently that is.  After that San Diego trip, I took a serious look at how I’ve been “changing” my eating lifestyle, but really haven’t.  Then like I said in the previous post, on June 2nd we started meal planning and staying pretty well on target with that.  That was two weeks ago and I should have lost something by now, but I haven’t!  Well, technically I have I guess, I’ve lost 0.4 lbs.  On June 2nd, I was 214 even, this past Friday, the 15th, I was 213.6.  How can that be!?  And that was a good number considering the other numbers I saw this week.  How is it that I can be so up and down all the time, I’ve never had this much trouble trying to lose weight when actually trying like this, that is until I had a kid.  I love my son so much more than words can express, however, I don’t necessarily like what it did to my body.  Another thing that frustrates me to no end, is seeing people that have lost quite a bit of weight that I don’t really like, which in my mind means that they shouldn’t have lost any weight, haha, reality hurts sometimes.

So Wednesday this week was one of the lowest points for me.  I just felt so defeated and discouraged and like there was no light at the end of the tunnel.  Before I got married I was at the gym ALL the time and I literally mean all the time.  I had 2 hour lunches at work and since the gym was 2 blocks away I would go for lunch and then again after work.  After, I got married, I cancelled my membership so that we could save some money.  I figured I could just do things at home to stay fit, but I feel that I really thrived at the gym.  I don’t know why, maybe I didn’t want to look dumb in front of everyone else or whatever, but I do so much better there.  So Wednesday, after talking with my husband, I rejoined the gym.  I went Wednesday night, Thursday night, and Friday morning.  Unfortunately, I haven’t been able to go this weekend because of other commitments.  However, starting Monday, my goal is to go 2-3 days a week twice a day and 2-3 days a week once a day.  I have also decided to start counting my Weight Watcher points but to also make sure my overall calorie intake is between 1400-1500.  According to loseit.com, my calorie intake should be 1570 to lose 2lbs per week.  So I’m hoping that with a 1400-1500 calorie intake and staying below my points and doing 2-a-days at the gym, I should start to see some progress.  Prayers are welcome for this! 🙂

My original plan for this blog was to write every day and I still want to do that. But with a 18month old, its hard to sit at the computer for any length of time.  Maybe my husband being home for the summer will allow me to do more.  But for now, I will do what I can.  I’ll let you know how it goes.

Last weigh-in June 15th, 2012       – 213.6

Here’s to hoping the next weigh-in I put on here is a LOT less!

Hello world!

My name is Jamie.  I am married to the most wonderful man, Justin.  And together we have a beautiful son, Landon.  I am so in love with my family.

I am starting this blog to help me lose weight, although I think it will end up being more than that.  Landon will be 18 months old in 9 days!   Since my six week check up I have lost only 7 pounds.  I didn’t dare weigh myself before that 6 week check up.  I have tried many different methods to lose this weight and have failed.  I don’t necessarily believe the techniques themselves failed, but more me and “cheating”.  My husband and I together started Weight Watchers in September of last year and did very well on it for the first month.  Then it was my husband’s birthday which we drug out celebratory meals for two weeks!  Then holidays and buying our first home and moving and the excuses go on.  In April, my husband had a week off work for Easter break.  That following week after Easter, on the 16th, I had realized we were a little shorter on money than we should be.  So after balancing the check book to make sure we didn’t miss something, I added up all the times we ate out.  It was $300!!!  In just 16 short day!!! For a family of 2 1/2!!!! No wonder we weren’t losing weight.  However, in our defense, we ate at “healthy” restaurants.  But no matter how “healthy” a restaurant is, it’s never as healthy as you can make at home.  We knew things needed to change.  We didn’t eat out the rest of April.  In May, we already had a vacation to San Diego planned for my husband graduating with his Master’s Degree.  We were determined when we got back things would change, it would be a new beginning.  When we returned, we started with Weight Watchers again, seriously this time.  But things still weren’t completely different.  We ate out, just definitely not as often.  By the end of May, I felt defeated.  I had only lost a pound.  All my hard work staying within my “points” and running (I started a running program in February and love it!  I never thought I would ever say that!) and it was all for 1 pound.  Talk about disappointment.  My lovely sister-in-law had some Weight Watcher recipe books so I decided to go over and check them out.  While I was there she told me about meal planning.  I don’t know why I never did this before, I just didn’t.  So I came home and talked to my husband out it.  We looked through the cookbook and planned out new meals that we weren’t tired of, had never tried, and sounded delicious.  We made a grocery shopping list and went shopping and stuck to the list.  June 2nd, 2012 is when we officially started our new recipes and meal planning.  Today is June 12th, I guess I need to remember it’s only been 10 days since the 2nd, but I’ve lost 1 pound!  Wahoo, I guess that makes 2 pounds total since we got back from San Diego!  Have to celebrate the small gains…er losses?

Anyway, all that to say… I want/need to lose weight.  I want to lose a total of 55 pounds.  So far, I’ve lost 7 pounds, just 48 more to go to get to my ultimate goal weight!  I say ultimate goal because my husband and I want to start trying for another baby.  So I really want to be at least where I was when I got pregnant with Landon, that is still 20 pounds away.  I am no longer on birth control, so hopefully I can at least lose the 20 pounds before that happens.  I need to make this happen.  If I had just focused in September, like I hope to now, I would have been at the ultimate goal.  I am hoping that in creating this blog, I can create some sort of accountability to do this.  This is an open forum and not in any way blocked so anyone can read this.  Although I don’t plan to tell the world about it, unless someone asks, they can definitely find it!  Therefore, people I don’t even know will know how much I weigh and need to lose, how uncomfortable is this?

I’m sorry if this is lengthy or unorganized or whatever, but this is me and my thoughts, for me and my goals.  I’m sure I left things out that I will likely add commentary on in later posts.  Like I said earlier, this is mostly to help myself lose weight and will be sort of a weight loss blog but will most likely cover all my everyday life kind of things.

Happy Reading!

 

My weight at my 6week check up February 1st, 2011                                  220 pounds

My weight as of this morning  June 12, 2012                                                 213.2 pounds

 

My short term goal before we have another baby                                        190 pounds

My ultimate goal (probably after 2nd baby, unless I can rock this!)       165 pounds

I am 5’9 by the way, so yes 169 is where I should be to be in a healthy BMI range, but I’m adding 4 more pounds to go so when I go to doctor’s offices I’ll still me in the normal range, haha, just kidding. I’m comfortable at 165, for now anyway.